This time I'm sure!

Slowly ever so slowly i am healing. i thank the Lord for this bueatiful raining day that i can exsist in. i miss life although selfishly i love my own time. i have not thought grander or harder about issues in a long time. i have reconciled differences, build a stonger web of conviction, and planned till i refuse.

last night was lovely... we wnet to an italian resturant and sat to close to the piano and accordian while they accompied us with among other lovely things... the Grease medly. we had to lean so close together our heads almost touched. we talked of many things of colors and early memories, the thoughts of each other that draws us together. he is practical. and i love that, every minuete of his problem solving. in his bueatiful low voice offering advice.

last night i dreamed in the most vivid autumn colors and the skies were from the 17th century.

i am trying to have the best posssible attitude about work. to have patience and perserverence. it's quite hard when the conversations - or the being talked to - is the same. rachel put up with it better. i'm not married and have zero children so maybe i will talke about my cat or my latest painting... no wait she can top that to. God give me wisdom!