I read the entire book "Reedeming Love" last night. The whole thing... after I closed it at the end I started to cry. It hit me so hard. Basically it is a modern day story about Hosea. The impeccable character of Micheal reminded me of someone. And the unrelenting coldness of Angel reminded me of someone else. I was ashamed after I had finished with it. I had been Angel too many times. Here was God offering me freedom and a joyful life and I keep running back to the unlovely, the temporal, and the jaded life. There is a verse in the Bible when God talks of Isreal's chain and bondages. He says "I have broken their bondages, why will they not follow me?" I always looked at following Christ as a gratitude issue, but it is so much more than that. It is an adoption. We can't owe anything to our parents when it comes to loving. It's not "love me and I'll love you". it should be "i'll love unconditionally no matter how many times you screw up." the relationship with Christ is such a parent child relationship. The intiminte day and day out love.....
posted by lynnemily at 9:01 AM
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Wow, Emily ... I can't believe you read that whole book in one night. It took me at least a week (and that's dang fast for me). But isn't it the most beautiful story? I must admit ... I used to hate Christian fiction (and still probably do) but that book made me experience the love of Christ. What a rare treasure.
5:41 AM
yeah, i read fast and it still took me a couple nights at least. amazing book.
it was good to read what you wrote. i broke down at counseling last night thinking about how my anger and pride are my 'other lover' that i cling to when i let me fear get the best of me. the one thing (Jesus) that can offer me rest is the one thing i turn away from in times of pain. why do i cling to my emotions rather than clinging to Jesus. Why can't I trust? i wish the day in day out didn't freak me out so much. so many days i find myself longing for the boundary lines of solitude to protect me rather than the familiarity and trust of a close relationship with someone who loves me.
man, i'm really screwed up...all that to say i'm learning a lot about what you described and it was good to read. Haircut this week?
10:14 AM
no, i know what you mean. Sometimes i don't call poeple or initiate friendships because i am to concerned about myself and it's like i give half myself because i have half the chance to get hurt or let down. It's the same with my relationship with Christ. I feel he is standing there waiting, but i am so obstiante - wrapped up in my doubts, fears and selfishness that i don't even give Him a glance.
Wednesday for a cut. I am off at 5 and will be hanging out at 8 or 9. so any time in between would be great!!
10:21 AM
we have a dinner date with a couple from church so early is good. I can make it home by 5:30, can you be there then? Do you know how to get to my apt? my email is saltnlight333@aol.com. if you need directions, email me and i'll get them to you. = )
10:52 AM
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