Opening my Mind

This morning was nice. i picked my sister up from work and went to hear the missionaries talk that she had stayed with while she was in peru. their ministry is amazing. they have so many oppertuniteis in peru- teens, unwed mothers, moblie bilbe teaching. the missionarries adn poeple there see so many needs and they try to fill them and are stretching themselves to the limit. oh the faithful! they are willing to work 24/7 at the expense of thier health and sometimes thier families. i wonder often if i am one. i feel so selfish most of the time. the church i attend does not give it's memebers millions of opertunites to rush in and serve. there is a void ... a void for the poeple of the church to look and realize people in need of serving. to open their homes to those in need. all my motives are tainted i've come to see again and again. today at the church the pastor preached on grace. he stated how we often misunderstand it. we give gifts in hopes the favor be returned, we do things for our friends, boyfriends, families in hopes that we would get a little lovin in return. but grace is a GIFT. awkward to recieve, but in god's love for us while we didn't even give a damn he gave us grace.