On the Fountian

Cat
I rented the movie. It was to much like the book they exnilled the character of Katie - which i was thought was important becuase it showed the effects of an individual fatigue by unrelenting serventhood to others. i thought she was more of a antigonist to roark than peter, becuase while peter was serving the public for them granting of his greater good, katie was serving the public for their greater good. roark served the public for his greater good individualistcally. in his serving he cared more for mankind because he stood for the man that would stand for himself and have integrity. in the end climax (which he quoted word for word in the movie) it was so much of nobody will care for your individuality so you better stand up for it. i agree to that some what but these poeple not having any concern for God, the only thing they can hold to ( and loosly at that) is them selves. i think it is interesting that she "choose" the career for the main character to be an architect. i reaaly can't imagine what other profession would have worked better than a fine artist. of course than you get into the realitivism of fine. anyways that has nothing to do with architectures impact but that will be in the next post

She folds her legs like folding a delicate instrument

I have decided I am going to to move and start living bymyself, maybe it's a phase. The thought of living alone is bueatiful to me and now that i can, i am.
I am consuming the Fountianhead. It's a bueatiful story so far (till page 287). It is too quotable. I had forgotten how much I loved Architecture and it's impact and comment on socitey. Poeple live and die for it, well maybe not now but they do fight...
It has just bejun discussing the bizarre relationship between Roark and Dominique. It's bueatifully twisted. They have found someone that understands each other more than anybody else, and yet on their mind is utter destruction and misery for their contemporary. However in each other they find imppeccable pleasure. Strange it will never happen....

I feel like a vualt at the moment.... i am going to go sit in my corner and do vaultish things.

I read the entire book "Reedeming Love" last night. The whole thing... after I closed it at the end I started to cry. It hit me so hard. Basically it is a modern day story about Hosea. The impeccable character of Micheal reminded me of someone. And the unrelenting coldness of Angel reminded me of someone else. I was ashamed after I had finished with it. I had been Angel too many times. Here was God offering me freedom and a joyful life and I keep running back to the unlovely, the temporal, and the jaded life. There is a verse in the Bible when God talks of Isreal's chain and bondages. He says "I have broken their bondages, why will they not follow me?" I always looked at following Christ as a gratitude issue, but it is so much more than that. It is an adoption. We can't owe anything to our parents when it comes to loving. It's not "love me and I'll love you". it should be "i'll love unconditionally no matter how many times you screw up." the relationship with Christ is such a parent child relationship. The intiminte day and day out love.....